What Would You Do If You Weren’t Afraid?

I’ve spent the last few months convincing myself that this was fate. Life was suppose to turn out like this.

We’re all inundated with the belief that we’re suppose to be okay with not knowing how or what our lives are going to turn out like. We’re coerced into spending almost $100,000 on our education, which is most definitely an investment in our future. Oh, and that living at home is a stepping stone and not a ending point.

I’m getting scared– no, I’ve been scared.

I wake up everyday feeling like I didn’t sign up for this. I was destined to be a nightly newscaster or hairstylists, like my younger self frequently dreamed of.

I shared my fears like I often do with my grandmother the other day. She had an unlikely response:

What would you do if you weren’t afraid ?

I really started to think about it. I decided to compile a list of things I would do If I stopped feelings so sorry for myself.

It’s a growing list, but here is the start:


1. Learn to dive. Years of swimming lessons and I have yet to pull it off.

2. Dye my hair Kim K. blonde.

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3. Hand write letters to everyone who has done wrong by me. (Who wouldn’t?)

4. Eat red peppers, onions and mayo.

5. Take a dance class.

6. Open a boutique.

7. Start an organization that focuses on professional development and life skills for inner city kids.

8. Endorse politicians. (It’s too risky in today’s pc society)

9. Be honest and open with my feelings in a relationship.

10. Live in a different country.

11. Spend New Years in Paris.

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12. Go to beauty school so I can wax my own eye brows and receive product discounts.

13. Tell someone when they’ve hurt my feelings

14. Host seasonal viewing parties for all of my favorite shows, even though there is a possibility that no one will show up.

15. Send emails and letters when I’ve gotten really great service (I don’t know if this is a fear or just laziness).

16. Post every shopping purchase online (just because I love my purchases that much).

17. Not settle for a job that I’m not happy with.

18. Also, not settling in relationships just because I like the person.

19. Delete every social network.

20. Tell a fake friend that I actually hate them.

21. Get rid of the fear of judgement

22. Stop reading my horoscope every night at midnight.

I’ve heard that our fears mean we’re living. Life is about screwing up, starting again, and being scared shitless the entire time.

This is no longer just my list of fears. It’s my bucket list.

Now, I’ll ask you: What would you do if you weren’t afraid?

You Are Moody, Sensitive and Unpredictable.

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I love astrology. I enjoy not having to worry about what’s going to happen tomorrow, and look forward to the eerie feeling when it’s all too familiar.

I recently came across a site that breaks down your astrological report down to the day you were born. Yes, this isn’t a major discovery.

I found my description to, well, give me goosebumps.

Discover yourself (click there).

Pisces

Personality : You are moody,sensitive and unpredictable.You love beauty and day-dreaming.You also make good poets.You are sympathetic and flexible by nature but sometimes,you can carry this to the extent of showing disregard for moral values.You tend to cross-check,and perceive things intuitively.Being kind-hearted,you find it difficult to refuse people as you have a genuine concern for them.Of course,smiles Ganesha,you will make good doctors and nurses.You may be disappointed in matters of the heart and hit the bottle consequently.With a strange outlook on financial matters,you share what you possess and expect others to do likewise.Your drawbacks are that you are secretive,indecisive,impractical and an escapist.

You shoulder maximum responsibility, that too willingly, says Ganesha. Hard-working, detail-oriented and focused, you see any task to its very end. Clutter and inconsistency irritate you. Practical, honest, trustworthy, intelligent and logical, your actions often speak louder than words. You are also drawn to the mystical realities of the world. Your clarity of thought and action, coupled with your quest for knowledge, take you quite far into the realms of the occult. Well, says Ganesha, you have the power to deal with it all, as well.
Positive Qualities : Liberal and sensitive, gentle and caring, progressive and kind, persuasive, nature-loving and imaginative, humane.
Negative Qualities : Uncertain, vague, easygoing, sometimes careless, difficult to understand, impractical, occasionally lacking in balance.

Chinese Sign: Monkey

Your quest, notes Ganesha,is to gather knowledge.To top it,you are blessed with a good memory,and remember things about the subject you delve into.Hungry for knowledge and good at grasping it too,you can talk eloquently at length.You love to create a buzz in your surroundings.Challenges turn you on and you do not give up till you win.Monkeys make loyal,devoted friends and dedicated professionals.You need to watch your eating habits as you may not eat well at meal time,and then snack enthusiastically in between.This will seriously affect your digestive system.Compassionate and kind,you have a friendly approach towards others.You are an excellent entertainer and love to be the soul of a party.